This is Halloween,...This is Halloween

What i did in Markoffs Saturday Night: That was my funnest night, full of snarling climbing on bus seats and chasing people :) and soooo many pain killers (5 advil, 2 tylonol) so after that though i had one of those life talks with a guy i didn't know so well (*Woody*), but i can tell there'd be nothing between us, and with those guys i keep them really close to me, because i just KNOW nothing would be there to screw it up you know? That lasted about an hour, then we were driving home (1:00 AM) and we decide... Let's let *Woody* drive, so we let him drive and he goes BANANAS! and I only screamed once out of twenty minutes, so then another friend of mine *Twitchy* wants to drive, i let her drive, i have never felt so crazy, like a real rollar coaster! WOW! and she only made it THREE minutes... hahaha

From there we went home and i slept.... .Sunday (today) i went to church and got to see *Sonic* we held hands, and it was cute :)


Letter to Romeo: 1

Nice Thing of the Day: Its easy to read Sarah's emotions sometimes, when you want to know if there's anything wrong, look at her eyes and you can tell if their slanted or not, she has a REAL good evil glare, that makes it easier for guys to tell if she's mad/ crying/ upset. But i like it because me? I blank out, i'm a mask and people are like... "whats wrong?" and i couldn't tell them... but Sarah at least gives you a hint :)


HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

the day of "Awww i want one.... Later"

So i have a confession to make. You know those pathetic girls that dream of rasing a family? Thats me, or at least, today that was me... I learned about babies after going to a baby shower of a leader of mines, it was fun! We ate sandwhiches and i learned your not supposed to feel a baby blanket softness with your face, the angry elders looked at me like "What are you doing?" I found that Amelia the three year old is also fascinating, check this out- she said WOW as she opened a present of SOCKS to her, it was SOCKS, and she looks at them and said "WOW" haha, and she doesn't know how to say thank you yet though. I thought "Wow" was enough of a thank you though. Babies are adorable, and i learned about the hospital process, apparently the husband makes alot bigger difference if he's there or not, or alot bigger difference then i thought he would amake :/ i thought he was there as a stress toy to be like "I HATE YOU" or "YOU DID THIS TO ME" or "AHHHHHHH" to him, i didn't think he actually helped. I thought he was one of those people just in the way like a "what do i do- what do i do?!" sort of helpless and lost when it comes to stress of woman, like when woman get really emotional, or recieving a beautiful gift of mother nature and he looks at you saying "Do you need a.... *dramatic pause* tampon?" And your like "YES STUPID HEAD GO GET ME A TAMPON!" but still. that sounds weird, i think guys have a phobia for tampons except for gay guys THANK YOU GAY GUYS! every girl needs a gay best friend. a friend in that situation would be like "Ok i'm guessing platex and chocolate and would you like to go out for icecream and clothes?" and you would be like "I love you" in my head, To my poor helpless straight guy friends

Lesson on awkward girly moments: Don't make it look awkward, make a joke if you have to! (but don't joke about how bad we look, that only makes it worse) GROVEL if you have to... Be prepared to do ANYTHING she asks you to, that's legal of course, and treat her like a fragile glass ball ... thats trying to jump off a building. Just be cautious alert and hold us close :)





With that...

Nice Thing: Sarah is the only other person who meow's with me, when i purr or make any animal sounds, she has this innocent curious look and goes "meow?" its awesome, because no one else would do that... they'd just be like "WOAH WHAT WAS THAT!?" and i'd sigh and be like "Get used to it"

Friday, the day of VICTORY and pain

So on friday i had a MAJOR self esteem boost
an AP literature in-class essay with Tobachinik: B
AP art history final: B

AMAZING! i had so much adrenaline! i was like YEAH I"M DUMBLEDORE SMART! all day- it was fun :) and i also had to go to the forest, which i thought i could handle but i couldn't. You see i have a tooth ache, and where i work Pain is sort of a joke, like its all about perception, so saying your in pain, is actually sort of weak. So i went to work with a tooth ache, and a tooth ache impacts your whole entire head, and i did it without any pain medicine, so it SUCKED! I couldn't stay the whole night, and i clocked out near 9:00, which is really early seeing we get let off around 12-1 AM, so i went home smelly like campfire smoke, watched some How To Train your Dragon (completly muggle fantasy- dragons are really harmful) and slept forever. That was probably the most amazing thing of the day- sleeping so much, and the B's but STILL!




Nice Thing of the Day: Sarah has this Marilyn Monroe look, that i'm really jealous of, because not only does she have the look, the face and hair, just like everyone else, but she also has the figure, so she could totally play as a twin as oh i don't know- the most remembered super model in the united STATES! possibly the whole WORLD! ENVY! haha

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Romeo oh Romeo ...

Well, i've been waiting awhile to use that title :) Romeo left for two years on monday, and i think i'm beginning to cope a little bit, i think the constant reminder on facebook of my profile picture wasn't helping, so i changed it to a cuter one and i think that took my mind off of Romeo for a while. So in the mean time i got a talk for Stake Conference (in front of easily hundreds of people) its scary, but i'm excited at the same time. I get red in front of everyone, so alot of concealer will be on my face. I can't think about that right now. Because lo and behold as soon as he called, he mentioned Romeo, and a friend of mine and how he was proud for me being a missionary, sorry this is so religious everybody! but i got a little sad again, i'm ok though now, i'm thinking of that Legally Blonde Opening Credits song "perfect day" its an AMAZING mood booster! and you know what comes on tonight!? GREY'S ANATOMY! and i think its hard to be upset when Dreamy and Twisty are Married (though personally? I watch for Christina and Hunt) and though as hard as it may seem, I believe that i am a more fangirl of Erik (phantom of the opera) then i will ever be Cedric, Ron, Mcdreamy, Mcsteamy, and dare i say it.... Owen *GASP* haha ok ok but i am a ginger fan, after all i'm a ginger myself. Ginger Pride, though i find it funny i'm highly religious and i have "no soul" thanks to South Park. Stupid Show, but i still find it funny and ironic... VERY ironic, i mean i'm the kid if you run over a leaf in autumn on the road i'll say "poor leaf" in my head.... i can go hours on it, how the leaf felt, how it was just looking for a new home because the tree disowned him after he died his hair from green to yellow and how the tree is a bad parent. Weird aren't i? i thought so :)


Nice Thing: Sarah raised me as a kid, she often was the one who made me oatmeal and taught me to stop suckign my thumb in public, and to buy Flattering clothes on my size, to chew with my mouth closed, and a bunch of other disgusting but necessary things, but my mom was sort of hesitant to teach me that, she sort of figured we'd learn on our own, lo and behold i have a now 10 year old sister with Braces who doesn't know how to cover her mouth when she eats. EWWWW! sarah where are you?

Snot Volcanoes and Phantom Fandom

So the disease of SNOT VOLCANOES! my sister and i have managed to catch it at the same time, from east to west coast. Terrifying? I thought so! Its weird, i had a humidifyer and EVERYTHING (which burned me as i was watching the puffy clouds- i think it resents me from its constant growling) other then that it wasn't a very Crowded day- i got some shrimp fried rice, after my promise to myself to get away from McDonalds addiction that was yummy and i also got my young womans award :)

Nice Thing: Sarah loves beauty books. She's like that person when you don't know what to do and your panicking, i remember for my eight grade dance she took one of her best dresses and put me inside of it, and started to put baby powder in my hair because little miss me thought conditioner was to make hair shiny and smooth, and didn't know when enough was enough. I thought back then it was torture, now i know that i can turn to her for all that advice you can't really learn in magazines, but family.

Cat Naps and Celestial Drinks.

My dad says orange juice is the drink of heaven. Its odd- but today all i can say is ditto. I woke up and i was SOOOOO sick and when i say sick- i slept until 1 PM.... WOW haha, and i still have SOME homework, but i'm not so concerned any more, i'm well rested, i need to learn how to video blog, not going to lie that was pretty cool

Romeo leaves in about 10 hours. Wow. Who knew it would come so soon? ... I don't really have a set reaction, my brain puts itself in autopilot- and thats alot easier to live with, the months fly faster, time goes by.... but with that, i sort of lose myself, and honestly? That scares me, this is one of the saddest entries- probably THE saddest... why? I don't like sadness. I've been there, i remember three years of my mom constantly every winter picking me up from school because they thought i was mentally unstable- but more then that, i remember how i felt. i was confused, i was angry, i was constantly upset and i felt like no one could do anything right but me. How messed up is that? And what was worse? i'm one of the cases that was depicted as light. reasonably controlled. YUCK! but i'm alright now, lets not sit aorund the fire and sing Kum-Ba-Yah shall we? All i know is that 'auto-pilot' is good and its bad, it keeps you away from pain... it keeps you away from joy. Its like a blank white paper being called beautiful, its not ugly, but its not a masterpeice. Its weird i know....

nice thing:

Sarah? She's spiritual in a way everyone else is scared of. When a warrior comes back from war- who gets more respect? the person with no scares and a badge of honor, or the guy who got his arm blown off and teased in the barraks? Oddly. Sarah is the one with scares, most of us overlook. She's been in situation that people say oh thats her fault, but whats more important, she comes back and she comes back with wicked scars, stories that are honorable, my sister is a warrior. Like Arwen or Rosalie, she came back instead of going to the better life. She came back to be scorned and bullied, but she chooses not to tell her stories, to me my sister is a hero