Two More Days: The Heck Week.

Two days until thursday
aka my last first performance as a midnight player. Its sad but true
I'm not saying this is the time to reminisce because its not, i don't want to really type how i feel about the midnight players right now, because it'd hurt and i'd cry and i'm in the middle of photography class, not exactly the best setting for tears. The musical is really intense and it takes alot out of me, but i'm more scared of it not taking enough- i'm more scared with me walking away with the wrong message, but the musicals defintaly each had their own moment

Footloose: My first musical with Romeo around, and it was really memorable, and special when everything was just pure puppy love.

Beauty and the Beast: Oddly my least favorite, but still it makes the top "most rememberal" it was fun and alot of stuff to show off- it will be remembered forever

South Pacific: Things finally started turning around as soon as Romeo graduated, and people started seeing me for me. I found so many more "girl" friends that i ever thought possible and i had a few of those girly sleepovers- i remember eating starburst and skittles for dinner while watching Big Fish on my friends ITouch, and i miss her alot recently. It was the first show i had to really lean back on and why i continued in drama

Seussical: Soon to come :)

Code?

So nothing THAT exciting today, i just brushed up my skills on riding a Muggle Car, which i named "Appa" since i'm also a earth bender.

Basically for those of you who aren't in my life

I'm an Earth Bender (avatar the last air bender) However my code name is Yoouai
I am An Elvaclan (Calleva)
I am United States of America (My WWIII)
And i'm also a die-hard Hufflepuff (Harry Potter) But i'm also code names Lilly EVANS
Just because there is another Lilly POTTER.

So yep. My car is named Appa and my friends car is called Momo, get over it. Here i am convinced i am only a year long internship for muggle studies, and that's only because i never got my Hogwarts letter. Dang it. I love the fact i can pretend here, and i do it mainly for saftey of the blog. I don't want people to walk up to me knowing who i'm dating, where i park Appa, or more importantly information about my loved ones. So yeah code gets out alot.

Tomorow i'm presenting in Muggle Theater class my musical about a sci-fi romance, its dark but relatable with a fairy-tale twist. Its really pretty and its main focus is the music instead of the acting, but the story is amazing too (i wrote the script and lyrics for most- i have a composer who i shall from this point call "Webber") Because she or he is the next Andrew Lloyd Webber

I'm pretty excited, I already showed my professor professor privatley so i'm excited to show the rest of the class ... Wish Me luck?


Rose: She's good at communication and she believes in logic .... i love her :) Because i SUCK AT COMMUNICATION like if it was WWIII they'd be looking for me for months and would find me in CVS eating twinkies because i didn't tell anyone.

My Report.

So to bring you up to speed...

Romeo left- and that's typical Romeo, i expect him back in a couple of months. My reactions? Not really sure. He's not going to leave until one of two things happen
1) He realized i am way too far gone, which won't happen unless i have my own family, and i'm 18 so no that's not going to happen. He's quite the persuasive bugger
2) He and i are dating

Do i want to date him? ...... Not really? I don't think about it anymore. I think i'm completely over him as a current love interest, I don't think about him anymore, and i've moved on to bigger and better things.

The show for example is in NINE days, and that means its time to start panicking. But i'm pro at this, its my 6th musical with the Midnight Players, and my last and that's so sad, but i'm ready i think, I've lived a good long life with them.

Seussical by itself is such a hard show to put together, and our "drama mama pep talker" D.M.P.T said that it could top our Beauty and the Beast that sold out all 4 rows and we had to keep scraping up seats out of no where. It was worth it though!

I also am looking forward to College, however i don't know what track i'm on. A little panicky but i'm gonna be ok- i always am in the end. I don't want to think about college because i'm not really ready to leave. I keep burying myself in things so i'll forget about college and think about home more.


Anyway a poem for Rose
and her emotions towards Romeo



a ball of Hatred
inside her heart
watching her sister
get torn apart

she wants to kick
she wants to scream
but it won't make a difference
Romeo and Juliet are a team

So she waits for the end
as it always is the same
Romeo leaves her
she's just a normal dame

But then it doesn't matter
Cause Romeo's car gets "lost"
And you know what's even better?
Rose doesn't care about the cost

and then the phone gets stolen
found in a toilet, wet and broken
and you see a Rose in the corner
laughing- cause its just a token

suddenly it becomes a game
she's stolen another possesion
and she doesn't really care this time
its become a new obsession

Romeo is now so sad
he lost all of his little toys
"just suck it up you big fat baby
because your just a boy"

Now i'm not saying Rose is bad
oh no she's just mad at the mister
specifically the Romeo
who dares to mess with her Sister.

The Marauders

So everyone knows i'm a full time wizarding student for Hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardy- I miss it sometimes, but this whole muggle studies thing is really paying off :) i'm quite proud of myself for using the computer. I renamed some of my muggle friends after the legendary marauders to remind me more of home though...

James: He's the leader of the group, he's funny and i'm sort of related to him. (i'm Lilly EVANS) He's a natural man and he doesn't even know it, he goes around and tells other people what to do only when absolutley necessary.
Sirius: a pimp, and sort of careless, loves to slack off but at the end of the day we love him for it- he knows how to take your mind off things, he's gifted in being relaxing and lets face it what muggle doesn't need relaxing? I swear some of these gadgets exsist solely to make lives miserable.
Lupin: my best friend practically, of course i have girl muggle friends and i talk to them about feminine muggle htings like muggle boys and muggle music and muggle gossip, but Lupin and i can have conversations about the future and what matters, he's awesome.
Padfoot: He is the cute puppy pimp. He loves to act like a man and he loves attention, he'll do dangerous things to get attention and he's absolutley reckless with himself. He tries to be the leader too much- but he'll need it when James graduates from Muggle High School this spring.
Pettigrew/ Scabbers: Purely awesome. He loves to get attention, he loves eveyrone around him and tries to fit in. He is naturally in the group even if people don't know his single purpose- because theres alot of them. He comforts the girls the marauders hurt and he hugs alot, and despite his need for attention and to be the man of the hour, he always comes off as the perfect little brother with tinfoil armor and a nerf sword.


those are my best muggle guy friends... of course there are the girls too.

Nymphadora: because she's way to elegant and majestic to be Tonks. Her and Remus are just plain to cute to be real, but unlike any couple they constantly fight, they remind me more of Ron and Hermione sometimes. He can't seem to win her affections and she is really too hard core to notice. However recently, Nymphadora has been asking for more and more attention, so there is not much Lilly-Lupin time, its hard but i understand

Lilly POTTER: Her and James are just too cute. She refuses to think she's beautiful, even though she really is, James tries but being James he's not exactly reachable sometimes, but she can handle herself, she is strong and she's really fun to be around. Muggle or No Muggle this girl is my best friend at times, she's like the other half of me with the time she spends with me

Anew

I feel like doing a poem today. Honestly, because its 9:35 PM and I get up for muggle studies (starting with an extra course of mormon class) at 5 AM, and i have alot of emotions to lay out. Because this is the internet- your going to see alot of abstract things, not alot of specifics.

Anew.

Sometimes when i close my eyes

I dream i'm far away

a beach, a river, or a puddle

where i can sink or just decay

I look into the water

to see my reflection blank and sad

because its not really me

being blank is just the fad

Just when i start to drown

and realize i never was alive

I see a hand reaching down

and a child who has just dived

They lift me up without a word

as i sputter choke and cough

I stare at them in bewilderment

but they don't even scoff

"You've pulled me out a million times"

they give me a towel without complaint

then we just watch the sunset

which is prettier then i can paint

Though i have no reason to object

and my life is full of thank(s)

i can't deny it still hurts like hell

to see a reflection blank

But its worth it when i see that child

the child that i raised

dive in the water without fail

without even looking dazed

To think i raised such a family of youngings

so beautiful and new

makes me never want to drown again

It makes me want to feel....

Anew

That's pretty much what i'm feeling.

Nice Thing: Rose is a good role model. She taught me to chase dreams, and what to do when they don't work out, she taught me that life isn't about that one dream, because often when you get there it doesn't work out- its about that journey there and what a better person you are for that journey >

NYC

I got to visit another home of mine over the break- aka New York!! I love that city, i got to go with my older sister Rosalie! And it was totally stellar!!!!! We ate pretzals and we went 'shopping' (i laughed at the thousand dollar dresses)!! we also went to the mormon temple, it was really hard core!!

I loved it! I also ate my first veggie burger (it wasn't all that good, nothing to make a HOOPLA about you know?) But it was good being around my sister and dad, it was like aang when he goes to the eastern air temple closing all his chaatras .... AWESOME!

2011... WOW

So it 2011... What am I to do this year?

Musicals i'm seeing
Les Miserables
Phantom of the Opera
West Side Story


Musicals i've already seen professionally

Lion King (NYC)
Lion King (tour- LV)
Mary Poppins (Tour- DC)
Beatuy and the Beast (NYC)
Hairspray (NYC)


I AM SO EXCITED! I'm very anxious to be out of this town, I wanted previously to go out of the country (i'm turning 18, i never got a car, and I am GRADUATING) but i believe i'm the spoiled brat in my family, honestly i don't know how i get this lucky sometimes :P

Cast List: I got the lead Gertrude, and I'm kissing my cousin, i find a laugh calling out "BOYFRIEND!" To my cousin, and now he responds, so its actually quite hilarious
Romeo: Its been twenty odd days since my last letter... Still waiting, besides i don't see any prince charming stepping up to the plate any time soon... Its just not happening, and frankly i don't think it ever will, when has Romeo Montague ever had a challenge when it comes to soul mates?!? (alright so i can think of a few- but Romeo WAS pretty dreamy!)....

List of Movie Lovers that could kick Romeo's butt

1. Mr. Darcy (he has a brain, and listens to it, i find the compulsive "must have you thing" kind of old anyway)
2. Ron Weasly (He doesn't have a brain, and he's a ginger, and he is CUTE!)
3. Jasper Cullen (he can control emotions.... i find that so awesome!)
4. Dr. Hunt (G.A) (i find his character is exactly what girls need- but he has a weakness and it plays into who he is, alot of the guys are 'perfect' in the show, which drives me up the wall *cough cough DREAMY AND STEAMY!*
5. Salvatore Brothers (this is sort of hard to judge, light and guilty, or dark and sensitive?!?!)



ANYWAY- besides that i'm just chilling, i'm really tired with application process, and i'm working on killing the senioritus i've come down to- because frankly i find it hard to kill :/


Nice Thing: Sarah got me into a new musical over the break- called Little Woman, it was AMAZING!