Anew

I feel like doing a poem today. Honestly, because its 9:35 PM and I get up for muggle studies (starting with an extra course of mormon class) at 5 AM, and i have alot of emotions to lay out. Because this is the internet- your going to see alot of abstract things, not alot of specifics.

Anew.

Sometimes when i close my eyes

I dream i'm far away

a beach, a river, or a puddle

where i can sink or just decay

I look into the water

to see my reflection blank and sad

because its not really me

being blank is just the fad

Just when i start to drown

and realize i never was alive

I see a hand reaching down

and a child who has just dived

They lift me up without a word

as i sputter choke and cough

I stare at them in bewilderment

but they don't even scoff

"You've pulled me out a million times"

they give me a towel without complaint

then we just watch the sunset

which is prettier then i can paint

Though i have no reason to object

and my life is full of thank(s)

i can't deny it still hurts like hell

to see a reflection blank

But its worth it when i see that child

the child that i raised

dive in the water without fail

without even looking dazed

To think i raised such a family of youngings

so beautiful and new

makes me never want to drown again

It makes me want to feel....

Anew

That's pretty much what i'm feeling.

Nice Thing: Rose is a good role model. She taught me to chase dreams, and what to do when they don't work out, she taught me that life isn't about that one dream, because often when you get there it doesn't work out- its about that journey there and what a better person you are for that journey >