Prom

Scratchign my thinking cap. Its almost been a month since muggle senior prom. Now that said, i believe that the Yule Ball would've been more "my thing" you know? More magical, none of that muggle music, i could've danced with alot more people i actually know yeah yeah yeah. But Muggle prom was... ok. I got a slytherin dress, very daring very bold, being my die-hard hufflepuff type self. It was very pretty, i loved the way it looked black except in the sunlight you could see it was this dark beautiful mystical sea-green, it had jewels and i loved the fact that it sparkled, it had a jacket and everything (modest is hottest) and i got to get ready with Nymphadora. She was pretty awesome, we listened to muggle music (like Glee!!) and we talked alot which is strange because i usually don't open up to people. The before dinner was amazing, we went to Jame's house and we ate muggle foods, pizza, soda(in champagne glasses), chips galore. And all my other hogwarts students would be jealous to know- i got to ride in a Limo, which apparently just looks like a short night bus. It was long white and it was said to be "classical" We sang madonna and Journey, very classic and fun. When we got to the dance it took about 30 mins for most of the "muggle dancing" to take place, aka grinding, me being well me- i hid in a corner with Peter Pettigrew, my date. We danced, had a fun time, i was pretty disturbed by the grinding (these girls pay hundreds of dollars on dresses, just to shove them in other guys pants? Eww) and i did not like the fact all my group except for Peter and I were grinding (there were ten of us, mostly marauders) and i got just really angry and actually yelled at James something about being the leader and he should step up his game and i turn around and Remus was listening to every single word. You know those times that time seems to freeze without a time turner? The look of horror plastered in his face was a bad kind of priceless, it was awful and i just stormed out. I didn't really dance the rest of the night. Just talked with Peter and a couple of other muggle friends who also hated the grinding... Needless to say i expected that night to go differently. Next we went to Lupin's house for the after party... fun? Yes!!! it was surprisingly one of the most memorable nights ever, Lupin has a specific smell that makes me feel safe, and in a whole other world because Lupin has this other smell. I can't describe it, but imagine smelling roses all your life and then one day you smell lavender. Its different, but sometimes you need different. Sometimes you want to forget about everything else, so Lupin's house was full of Lupin smell and it made me feel like i was in a differnt world! We watched a muggle japanease film (castle in the sky) and then i got some grilled cheese which was delicious (i'm a vegetarian, and most people were not, so Mrs. L made some for me.. Thank you) and overall a very good night, most of us passed out on the floor and wherever i passed out on my dress. I sort of missed Romeo after seeing all the love around, but overall the group was back, where the actual prom was about the dancing, after prom was about the group... a perfect way to end the night. So what did i learn from prom? Getting ready .Dinner. Limo. After party.= AMAZING. Actual Prom= Not so much



Nice thing: Sarah wouldn't be so "goody goody" she knows how to have fun, where i am a stick in the mud in the corner.... note guys! Knows. How. to. Have. Fun, no not in that way you creepers! well i bet in that way too but she's my sister!

How Do I do it Again?

Ap's: Note. Taking four AP's? is stupid. highly discouraged. In high school that is, when you get to college by all means knock yourself out! Just not in high school. I took four AP's, AP Art History, the hardest exam out there because its straight out of your head, your own knowledge, when you go in for a AP lit test (which i also took) you have 17 years of english class behinds you- art history ? nothing, who knows anything about art history before the class? NO ONE!, so it has a huge curve which is supposed to be exciting and relaxing, but i have no idea what it means so what do i care? Besides lit and APAH, i had to do my art portfolios, drawing and photography, which sounds easy but its not at all its taking 30 of your precious works and sending them blindly to people for them to judge. and while i'm confident in my photography, i've never won a competition or anything and i've submitted to three competitions. So its getting harsh. And my drawings? Even harsher... Just plain brutal...

Speaking of brutal i have to get into this routine of not taking "good" as good enough, i like to be better, i like to be the best and i LOVE when people realize that. HORRIBLE HABIT, because it gets me into trouble. For example after Seussical starring as Gertrude Mcfuzz, i felt like a had to volunteer for Seussical Jr. and it totally suffocated me, so much stress because they were staging up to the last minute, a day before show. I had to help Horton and Gertrude alot and it was CRAZY but it helped, it was their first production ever and I have to say doing Seussical as their first production was a really risky move, but it paid off. I'm proud of them... next post? Muggle. Prom.

Where's Hogwarts When You Need it?

So... Its been over a week since Seussical has been over... It hurts, but its a bitter sweet memory. Sort of like parting from a dear friend. It'll hurt more in the fall when i'm going to BYUI (which i still have to get excited for) I can't say i'm excited to leave the Falcon school, its pretty awesome here. Its so hard to believe i'm going to be leaving- to a bigger and hopefully better place. I need to think its better, its not that it isn't, just i have to believe it is or else i can't leave. You see my high school years are pretty crappy except my freshmen year, and then senior year happened and i have to admit, best year EVER HANDS DOWN!

I have to believe in the future though. Because the truth is... i'm terrified. I'm terrified of leaving i'm terrified of college...

Stupid Muggle extended Study program.
I miss Hogwarts...

Two More Days: The Heck Week.

Two days until thursday
aka my last first performance as a midnight player. Its sad but true
I'm not saying this is the time to reminisce because its not, i don't want to really type how i feel about the midnight players right now, because it'd hurt and i'd cry and i'm in the middle of photography class, not exactly the best setting for tears. The musical is really intense and it takes alot out of me, but i'm more scared of it not taking enough- i'm more scared with me walking away with the wrong message, but the musicals defintaly each had their own moment

Footloose: My first musical with Romeo around, and it was really memorable, and special when everything was just pure puppy love.

Beauty and the Beast: Oddly my least favorite, but still it makes the top "most rememberal" it was fun and alot of stuff to show off- it will be remembered forever

South Pacific: Things finally started turning around as soon as Romeo graduated, and people started seeing me for me. I found so many more "girl" friends that i ever thought possible and i had a few of those girly sleepovers- i remember eating starburst and skittles for dinner while watching Big Fish on my friends ITouch, and i miss her alot recently. It was the first show i had to really lean back on and why i continued in drama

Seussical: Soon to come :)

Code?

So nothing THAT exciting today, i just brushed up my skills on riding a Muggle Car, which i named "Appa" since i'm also a earth bender.

Basically for those of you who aren't in my life

I'm an Earth Bender (avatar the last air bender) However my code name is Yoouai
I am An Elvaclan (Calleva)
I am United States of America (My WWIII)
And i'm also a die-hard Hufflepuff (Harry Potter) But i'm also code names Lilly EVANS
Just because there is another Lilly POTTER.

So yep. My car is named Appa and my friends car is called Momo, get over it. Here i am convinced i am only a year long internship for muggle studies, and that's only because i never got my Hogwarts letter. Dang it. I love the fact i can pretend here, and i do it mainly for saftey of the blog. I don't want people to walk up to me knowing who i'm dating, where i park Appa, or more importantly information about my loved ones. So yeah code gets out alot.

Tomorow i'm presenting in Muggle Theater class my musical about a sci-fi romance, its dark but relatable with a fairy-tale twist. Its really pretty and its main focus is the music instead of the acting, but the story is amazing too (i wrote the script and lyrics for most- i have a composer who i shall from this point call "Webber") Because she or he is the next Andrew Lloyd Webber

I'm pretty excited, I already showed my professor professor privatley so i'm excited to show the rest of the class ... Wish Me luck?


Rose: She's good at communication and she believes in logic .... i love her :) Because i SUCK AT COMMUNICATION like if it was WWIII they'd be looking for me for months and would find me in CVS eating twinkies because i didn't tell anyone.

My Report.

So to bring you up to speed...

Romeo left- and that's typical Romeo, i expect him back in a couple of months. My reactions? Not really sure. He's not going to leave until one of two things happen
1) He realized i am way too far gone, which won't happen unless i have my own family, and i'm 18 so no that's not going to happen. He's quite the persuasive bugger
2) He and i are dating

Do i want to date him? ...... Not really? I don't think about it anymore. I think i'm completely over him as a current love interest, I don't think about him anymore, and i've moved on to bigger and better things.

The show for example is in NINE days, and that means its time to start panicking. But i'm pro at this, its my 6th musical with the Midnight Players, and my last and that's so sad, but i'm ready i think, I've lived a good long life with them.

Seussical by itself is such a hard show to put together, and our "drama mama pep talker" D.M.P.T said that it could top our Beauty and the Beast that sold out all 4 rows and we had to keep scraping up seats out of no where. It was worth it though!

I also am looking forward to College, however i don't know what track i'm on. A little panicky but i'm gonna be ok- i always am in the end. I don't want to think about college because i'm not really ready to leave. I keep burying myself in things so i'll forget about college and think about home more.


Anyway a poem for Rose
and her emotions towards Romeo



a ball of Hatred
inside her heart
watching her sister
get torn apart

she wants to kick
she wants to scream
but it won't make a difference
Romeo and Juliet are a team

So she waits for the end
as it always is the same
Romeo leaves her
she's just a normal dame

But then it doesn't matter
Cause Romeo's car gets "lost"
And you know what's even better?
Rose doesn't care about the cost

and then the phone gets stolen
found in a toilet, wet and broken
and you see a Rose in the corner
laughing- cause its just a token

suddenly it becomes a game
she's stolen another possesion
and she doesn't really care this time
its become a new obsession

Romeo is now so sad
he lost all of his little toys
"just suck it up you big fat baby
because your just a boy"

Now i'm not saying Rose is bad
oh no she's just mad at the mister
specifically the Romeo
who dares to mess with her Sister.

The Marauders

So everyone knows i'm a full time wizarding student for Hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardy- I miss it sometimes, but this whole muggle studies thing is really paying off :) i'm quite proud of myself for using the computer. I renamed some of my muggle friends after the legendary marauders to remind me more of home though...

James: He's the leader of the group, he's funny and i'm sort of related to him. (i'm Lilly EVANS) He's a natural man and he doesn't even know it, he goes around and tells other people what to do only when absolutley necessary.
Sirius: a pimp, and sort of careless, loves to slack off but at the end of the day we love him for it- he knows how to take your mind off things, he's gifted in being relaxing and lets face it what muggle doesn't need relaxing? I swear some of these gadgets exsist solely to make lives miserable.
Lupin: my best friend practically, of course i have girl muggle friends and i talk to them about feminine muggle htings like muggle boys and muggle music and muggle gossip, but Lupin and i can have conversations about the future and what matters, he's awesome.
Padfoot: He is the cute puppy pimp. He loves to act like a man and he loves attention, he'll do dangerous things to get attention and he's absolutley reckless with himself. He tries to be the leader too much- but he'll need it when James graduates from Muggle High School this spring.
Pettigrew/ Scabbers: Purely awesome. He loves to get attention, he loves eveyrone around him and tries to fit in. He is naturally in the group even if people don't know his single purpose- because theres alot of them. He comforts the girls the marauders hurt and he hugs alot, and despite his need for attention and to be the man of the hour, he always comes off as the perfect little brother with tinfoil armor and a nerf sword.


those are my best muggle guy friends... of course there are the girls too.

Nymphadora: because she's way to elegant and majestic to be Tonks. Her and Remus are just plain to cute to be real, but unlike any couple they constantly fight, they remind me more of Ron and Hermione sometimes. He can't seem to win her affections and she is really too hard core to notice. However recently, Nymphadora has been asking for more and more attention, so there is not much Lilly-Lupin time, its hard but i understand

Lilly POTTER: Her and James are just too cute. She refuses to think she's beautiful, even though she really is, James tries but being James he's not exactly reachable sometimes, but she can handle herself, she is strong and she's really fun to be around. Muggle or No Muggle this girl is my best friend at times, she's like the other half of me with the time she spends with me